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the year i re​-​gifted my heART

by NathanAnthony

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I love you this much mom with both arms out stretched i love you this much mom and i’ll never love you less love you this much mom to infinity from womb i love you this much i love you to the moon (x2) VERSE 1 don’t know what to say when I start to put the words down we had some rainy days i know part of us is hurt now which is why I have to start this song with an apology i’m sorry for days past when i treated you awefully and it’s hard to admit that I’ve been wrong it’s probably why i chose to put it into song but please know that I’ve loved you all along even tears you’ve caused have help to make me strong i’m so sorry for my acts of disobedience not learning from mistakes and i ended up repeating em if i could i’d go back in time deletin’ em think about my words before i end up speakin em i was freakin dumb i was freakin young but i know my that my young dumb words still stung still rung inside your ears it’s still love despite the tears VERSE 2 since day one youve been my number one fan i want to color you handed me a crayon i want to build you helped me with the plans i made mistakes you gave me nother chance i can’t say that it’s always been perfect but i can say that its been worth it when i felt worthless youd help me find my worth in the only one worthy of our worship you’ve encouraged me as i’ve found my purpose your love that’s always fervent would look beneath the surface push me and challenge me push me and balance me somethin like a balance beam becuz life is challenging so you challenge me to go beyond my limits and you taught me it’s not over til its finished and that the gospel’s something that you live in and if you want it go and get it VERSE 3 this past christmas you became a grandma and he don’t like the title but ken became a grandpa i’m so thankful that both of you are caring because my son... will get to share in love from the heavens by way of his grandparents and i hope that relationship is one that he will cherish well let’s get back to the reason that i wrote this in this life it’s easy to lose focus it’s easy not to notice the people right in front of you something i don’t want to do a lot to do is no excuse “momma” not to take the time out just to tell you what you mean what youve done and how it has affected me you protected me never once neglected me with love you made this recipe taught me to love my enemies taught me what it means to see Jesus as a friend to me you love forever blesses me and will until the death of me....
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BananaCakes 02:33
Verse 1 everywhere she goes, the life of the party from her head to her toes, lovin each heart beat she walks the narrow road, life is what her art be forever we’ll be close, love is never parting from beginnin, daddy’s little princess still a princess, now she’s rulin’ pinstress so dope watchin her find where her niche is so grown as she narrows down her interests happy go lucky, even with a cast on half full, even if the glass gone emotional, even if she seems strong intelligent, even if she seems blond balancing challenges and she’s so talented balanced with family all the while managing having thee time of her life with her friends gets a little rest and then does it all again Chorus it’s a long road but beautiful’s the journey a girl whose never worried and always in a hurry it’s a paradox but damn she cares a lot starin off into the clouds and she’s never coming down Verse 2 better late than never, better clear than clever better now than ever, new chapter to be entered centered, though theres still a long and winding road weathered, the storms that have only helped you grow so, now that we’re here, we’ve been there and it’s clear that way care from the way that we share when we only used to fight, and now it’s all love okay we still fight, but it ends with a hug belle of the ball, all beauty no beast blessing us all, from the food to the speech and the truth that you speak when we talk as we eat or we walk down the street, just to feel free feel free to correct me if i’m wrong feel free as you listen to this song feel free as you’re barely hangin’ on feel free as your praying to our God Chorus it’s a long road but beautiful’s the journey a girl whose never worried and always in a hurry it’s a paradox but damn she cares a lot starin off into the clouds and she’s never coming down
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v.1 i wish early on we could have been closer maybe then when parents fought i could have just hold ya i wish early on i could have been bolder maybe then we wouldn’t have had wait til we were older to get to know one anothers fears and dreams to recognize we were on the same team to get to know that theres life after the screams to recognize that we just have to believe if i could id go back save you from the pain break the chains they put in place take your place and bear the weight wait, if only were just that simple they were fighting demons you got caught up in the middle but this aint malcolm, this is not fiction the scars are real, they were caused by friction the type created by a parents diction and now you have to find a way to clear your vision i can tell you what i see, i can’t save you but i can tell what i have seen hate do and over years im becoming more grateful for my two brothers who i now relate to v.2 here’s the part where i tell you both i’m proud i admire you and how youre turning you inspire me evry time i turn around playing in the silver lining of the clouds graphic artist, business minded man finds a plan don’t give a damn about the thoughts of another man and so you stand on your word and your potential and make it happen with a dream and your mental as ethan finds that everythings as its meant to even when life seems to bring an end to everything you thought was ever true and he’s clever too found his way to believe that nothing can ever sever you from the one who truly made us brothers the one who chose our fathers and our mothers the one who died because he loves us and so our bond can never be undone
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V.1 One of the most/beautiful hearts/this world has ever seen/but always so close/to fallin apart/and tearing at the seams/cuz he holds tight to hope/talkin bout ours/he gave up all his dreams/so that we might hold/firm to our goals/my father’s name is gene... memories of my father start with fishin in a lake passin down our heritage and passin down our faith passin on his face so that i can take his place when we lay his bones to rest and he escapes into God’s grace some other memories hurt because my parents got divorced they would pass me back and forth and he would take me to the court where we would play tennis it was like metaphor these are things i’ve thought but never really said before I love you dad i really should have said it more put that to the side cuz this right here’s a celebration from your gift from God from your first born son from your son Nathan anthony whitsell Chorus a father filled with love/but wrestling with demons passed both on to us/the torment and the dreaming i wish that we’d been closer/in time and in space at least as i get older my fam’ly feels your embrace V.2 i remember riding bikes and playing in the park i remember parents’ fights and how it hurt my heart i remember how it smells riding in your car i remember everything it made us who we are and here we stand never to be the same and in your hands you possess healing and some pain i love you dad, the laughter and the strain the sunshine and the rain that gave me warmth and washed the stains looking at your smile i see my own face that’s reflected and as your child i promise to always respect it even when we don’t see eye to eye on life learned lesson it guess that thats the essence of what honor you father’s stressin blessed are the humble, blessed are the meek and i saw our Father’s strength most when you were weak behind this song is how i feel can’t explain it with my speach but ill know that you feel it too by the tears that kiss your cheek
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CLV 02:47
Cristen Lorraine Vaughan V1 Seven years old, my mom and step dad just had daughter wonder if i wondered if he felt more like her father than mine will she cost me the time we used to spend will she become my foe or my friend started as the latter shattered that to tatters and back again and had to mend the friendship turned ten and the fighting seemed endless didn’t end until I relented poor lil sis young and defenseless against this lil man stressin due to feelin’ less than i guess I learned my lessons from a dad who used to use his words as a weapon how’d it go wrong when all along i dreamed of being strong when you needed protection but now our memories are just a collection of scars on our hearts and bitter sweet recollections of two little kids torn apart Chorus that I made some mistakes but those are the breaks that He can bear the weight of our past and our pain we’re made clean by his blood so now we’re able to love and i’m reminded of his grace every single time we hug V2 around 21, something in me changed I started dealing with my issues and my pain I fell to my face and let Christ begin to reign and somehow you and I were friends again its a mystery but instantly our misery began diminishing and injury was history and then a friendship thats endless cemented in a love thats relentless extended and life was replenished and I couldn’t be prouder of the woman that youve become nor could I be more ashamed of how dumb i was but my love now is unconditional proud of cris and trav, out there being missional and as you continue to run to our savior your vision’ll only get clearer i love my little sister crister bob and even over the equator and separated by time our hearts could not be nearer Chorus that I made some mistakes but those are the breaks that He can bear the weight of our past and our pain we’re made clean by his blood so now we’re able to love and i’m reminded of his grace every single time we hug
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Kenny 02:30
V.1 Kenneth Alan Renick to complex for definitions wishin that this livin could have remained just us sittin on a sand dune in the sunset where our tears hadn’t run yet but love gets heavy over time and we become its subjects subjected to emotion subjected to our past subjected to not knowing if your love this time will last this first verse will hurt a bit but listen’s all i ask we’ve put each other through some shit but now it’s in the past and i’m past the way it felt when you used to be sarcastic and i’m past the way it felt when your rules were so damn plastic and i’m past the way it felt when our friendship became static but i’m thankful for the fact that it’s prob’ly why i’m rappin we went from friends at toys r us and riding on a bike to friends who did some stuff but had our separate lives to eff it then i guess i just cant do anything right back to i love you and how you love hanan n kai V.2 looking back at years gone by with with a slightly new perspective ive become more grateful for the things you interjected you instilled in me a work ethic and taught me what respect is hidden in our ups and downs were important life learned lessons in essence you taught me what it means to be a man even when life held you down you found a way to stand even when we got off course you held us to the plan even though you couldve given up you never ran and these are all the things that we shared because you stayed i remember riding motorcycles in the rain i remember you on the sidelines at my games i remember sleeping under stars at the lake i remember your love that fought through all your hate i remember your face on every important day and i want you to remember that i love you as my father and still linger on your thoughts of me and every word you say
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love. 06:31
Verse 1 I never knew a love, love like mercy I’ve never felt a heart, that beats like yours beats Never looked in eyes, that see like yours see I never knew a love, love like mercy, mercy what erks me is I was too blind to see the forest through the trees i was too dumb to see there was more for you and me but what i did see was your joy in spite the pain the boy inside of Nate wasn’t ready for the weight of what it meant to be your man damn so we played the role of friends n enjoyed a friendship that probably felt endless to precious princess in distress stuck between running away and knowing who her prince is thank God you didn’t dismiss not sure that I could breath without your kisses short of breath when there’s any distance yours is the first face that I saw my misses Verse 2 my home is by your side i’m welcomed by your eyes i cannot help but smile and feeling like a child remembering my feelings as you walked down the aisle it’s been seven years and i’m fightin g back the tears thinking of the feelings that i’d feel if you weren’t near my dear, it’s clear, that we’re exactly where we’re spo’sed to be you and me are poetry take my hand and go with me say a prayer and hope with me holding me so complete no defeat surrender all no retreat when we fall grace is sweet and the sweet taste of g race has placed your face next to mine that’s divine blessed am I to be the one to hold you love you adore you pursue and explore you to help discover more you to continue moving toward you to love you as our Lord loves the church to love you when it hurts I’m yours to have and to hold until the day they lay me in the dirt
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V.1 Malakai, look me in the eyes and please savor this your mom and I prayed for this so glad to have and raise our kids to know that the greatest gift is in who the Savior is this'll only take a minute listen mommy took a seat and then she gave me the news she said that we were pregnant so glad that it was you we cried and we laughed and we held each others' hands we only did those things because we were so glad that she would be your momma and I would be your dad sad about the fact that it takes nine months not sure that i could wait that long to meet my son I chose your name when i was only in the eighth grade So i guess that you could say that i'd been waitin for this day since I was just a boy knowing that our bond would bring us so much joy your a dream come true content to keep dreaming as your mommy's belly grew V. 2 Breathe baby breath you don't need the epidural you told me that when you break i'd have to be strong push baby push i can see the baby's head with tears in our eyes you took your very first breath and now youre almost two and i just love holdin' you just to be close to you watching God molding you Threw us he knew us and grew us for you love a new love was born and now we cultivate the person you were made to be watch you grow patiently go for walks and play with leaves listen to you saying trees teach you truth from make believe to tell the truth i'm loving every minute i get to work and can't wait for it to finish i love coming home and going to the beach bicycle rides with your mommy you and me but most of all I hope to teach you to be free

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As a starving artist, it is super important to me to give my loved ones meaningful gifts, yet it is financially difficult. So, this year I decided to give my "gifts", my talents, to those I love as a means of providing them with meaningful presents for their birthdays. I will release a song on the birth date of many of my family members. I pray that these songs touch their hearts and lives and those of others. Peace and Love.

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released January 31, 2012

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Soul Anchor Collective is an independent record label comprised of like minded artists who work 9 to 5, yet see their music (art) as something they can't not do. The label was founded by Nate "NathanAnthony/KnewBalance" Whitsell in 2010. 2011 was a year of testing the waters, and 2012 looks promising with forthcoming albums from NathanAnthony, thePiecemakers and more. ... more

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